My Ascension

Show me a river, Lord
where I can wash away my sins
it’s gonna take some doing
to get out of this bag I’m in

I’m returning to this world
clearly way too soon
I should be spending days and nights
barking at the moon

I’m stepping on a new ride
emerging from hibernation
but if this is the train to reality
I’m out at the next station

should I go back and live the dream
trapped in a false pretension?
or is it worth just moving on
is this really
my ascension

Can we put the genie
right back in the bottle
Can we put this rickshaw in reverse
and pedal it full throttle

I don’t wish to navigate twisted
halls of my psyche
the familiar lurks where the sun don’t shine
and the truth will up and bite me

I could use a brand new paint job
upon my interior walls
let’s bring back the lunatic
and put him in my hall

How the hell did I end up
found in a lost dimension
what did I do to deserve such fate
is this really
my ascension?
I feel like I’m the
featured guest
in a twisted
sci fi convention
just what the hell are you
looking at
bear witness
to my ascension

pleasures of the flesh — oh yes
I’ll sign up for that gig
this being crazy bit is something
chicks sure seem to dig

I won’t be sticking ’round too long
just breaking off a piece for fun
’cause, woman, I got some heavy baggage
just… trust me on this one

a moment of carnal respite
is foremost in my head
please don’t tell my wife about it
oh, that’s right she’s dead

I don’t belong in
godforsaken place
I submit to you
my contention
I should be at home
curled up with a good book
and not embarking
on this ascension
I’ll be trapped inside this
nightmare
until I
collect my pension
who’s the old bastard with the
chip on his shoulder
this must be
my ascension

this loneliness is lonesome
I miss my wife and little girl
so don’t mind me if I bend your ear and
maybe just rock your world

I’m not afraid of
dying
cause if I follow
this world’s convention
when you die you can
still come back
my friends, I present
to you: Ascension

not since my bar
mitzvah
have I garnered
so much attention
baruch atah adanoi
elloheynu
today
is my ascension

let’s all rise and
tip our hats
and laugh
in condescension
at the ashen fool who’s
got two thumbs
it’s clearly
this guy’s ascension

the only opiate is vengeance
but that’s for another day
so for now I’ll just make like Captain Stubing
and slowly sail away